Ttook me a minute…

lmfao.

 

Grandmaster

As an active member (by extension) of The Peaceful Dragon martial arts school in Charlotte, NC, I have been blessed enough to make the acquaintance of our Grandmaster Ma FoRen/Frank DeMaria.

I was recently introduced to his blog. I was greatly impressed by his words and wanted to share his latest post along with my comment. I believe it speaks for itself.

Grandmaster’s Blog and my long ass comment(Scroll up to read his words first)

P.S. Pardon Grandmaster’s typos, he’s a pretty old dude. (But wise! Oh, so wise!)

 

new things

SO!  I was wrong about the True Blood finale.  No Godric.  Oh well… Alan Ball, you should have taken my advice, it would have saved Jesus whom we grew to love so much.  Nobody likes a sad Laffy.

Onto new things… I got a new job!  I’m finally moving out of the consulting arena and into a full-time, permanent position with benefits.  Not necessarily what my “dream” was a few years ago, but dreams are often overshadowed by reality.

More new things… you could win a $500 Apple Gift Card!!  Yep, it’s true.  I found out about this contest through the awesome CecilyK, so as a way of thanking her and also entering myself into the contest, I am blogging about it here.  Good luck, all you Apple-heads!

I’m posting this to enter a contest offered by Cashier Live, a point of sale software company, at Indie Biz Chicks. Enter to win here: I want to win a $500 Apple Gift Card from IndieBizChicks!

or here:

Win a $500 Apple Gift Card!

Even MORE new things… my wonderful sister, my other half, my everything… is pregnant with her first baby!  Words cannot describe how terrific this is, or how happy I am for her.  She and her husband deserve this, and have tried for a long time.  This is one very wanted baby and the amount of love he or she will have will be insurmountable.  I’m also psyched to get to know my sister as a mother, since I’ve been one for almost 6 years now and she has yet to experience the fantastic, terrifying ride.

hooray for new things!

 

Knowing and Not Knowing

I have made decisions. I have grown and learned lessons. I have matured. I am intelligent and motivated. I am Mommy and sister and friend. I care. I give. I love.

I am frightened. I am unsure and unsteady. I am hurt and am the cause of others’ hurt. I am broken. I am damaged. I need help. I need love. I am optimistic and terrified.

I am alive and I am going!

 

My True Blood Prediction

Season Four: During the penultimate witch/vampire war,Godric takes over Laffy’s body, not only winning the Vamps a victory, but proving that they DO indeed have souls. We know Eric gets his memory back, still loves Sookie, thankyouverymuch The End.

A note to Alan Ball, if for nothing else, and I mean NOTHING else… thank you for the gratuitous eye candy during last night’s episode. What a beautiful bunch of men you’ve hired.

 

Out of the darkness, came…

A selfish promotional piece!!

I’m posting this to enter a contest offered by Buy More Contacts at Uppercase Woman! I want to win the iPad 2!  Enter to win HERE!

Thanks for loving me.

Apologies for the selfishness, but I will promise to the, what, 2 people who read my blog that I’ll come back soon and post all sorts of grisly, gossipy stuff. Oh, I KNOW.

 

oh yaa?

You lied to me, Mr. Lundegaard.  You’re a bald-faced liar.  A…  F-f-FUCKING liar.

 

 

should i put this blog to bed?

I really don’t ever blog here, despite my intentions to do so. i still have dreams about writing awe-inspiring delicate prose that would enmesh myself among the highest caliber of bloggers in today’s society, with ad revenue to boot. alas, it is what it is. and what it is doesn’t leave a lot of mental white space that i could fill with my writing.

so, i might switch to Tumblr. Unfortunately I’m aware of some wrinkles that Tumblr’s been going through, and I don’t even really know where that leaves the site and its network of thoughtful authors. I think I’d be better suited to a Tumblr-like situation, nonetheless. My thoughts and experiences come in drips and drops, like inkblots and spaghetti sauce splatters. I don’t have the time to devote to creating banners or making phone calls and begging for sales and behind-the-scenes codes and scripts and shit. I rarely have the inspiration to write anything at all – sometimes I just want to share a funny YouTube video or song that’s been running through my head. I really wanted to be something BIG, but I never gave this desire enough effort. In my defense, I really don’t have the time or energy to. Two children are essentially all-consuming, so whatever hours are left over for “me” are spent trying not to think or do much of anything. Quiet time for the gray matter, if you will. Dreaming about blogging was fun, and the hope for creating a masterpiece was real. Obviously WordPress was the simple way to do it, and from what i have here already it was an enjoyable and easy little journal of sorts to play around with. Perhaps there’s a better avenue, though, for the subordinate like me… one where I won’t feel sad if I leave it alone for weeks on end. I want to be okay with not posting often. I want to know that the design I participate in doesn’t offer me a myriad of templates and add-ons, of domains and virtually unlimited media potential to cast away and leave out to rust, like the plaster-molds of trophies that never had the chance to build something golden. I want the remedial version of blogging. I’m just not in the same class as the valedictorians that I read and follow on twitter, whom I secretly wish I was more like (at least I wish my blog was more like theirs with all the clanging bells and melodic whistles). Part of me really wants to be able to brag about getting 400,000 page hits an hour and have upwards of millions of twitter followers. I want to be funny and anticipated. I want to be worth the attention. I want a life I don’t have.

I am me, and I’m not sure I belong in the big, bad vast society of privately-owned domains and fan mail.

So do I keep this up, however overlooked and delusive? Do I give Tumblr a go? Or do I continue to act dejected over an enterprise that has always rested on the back burner? It’s time I find something to fire up, I just don’t know what that is… yet.

 

this is what should be happening. i will write more. happy ‘eleven.

 

all things delicious

My favorite time of year is here… that time being October, November, and December. All things kitchen-related shall be moved to the highest pedestal and glossed. I can’t wait to bake sweet things and simmer savory things and feed hungry people and forget about how much weight I am gaining.

Good things are happening. And yes, I am fully aware that October has already passed. Hush, yeah you there in the back, I see you.

So what’s cookin’ in your neck of the woods? I just finished off a couple batches of raspberry jam, thanks in part to a local farm that grows everything wondrous and resplendent (including their raspberries).

Now I’m off to get myself into trouble, I have some potatoes itching to be boiled.