there were great highs and even greater lows.  i love my home and i always will, and yet i am not sure if i’ll ever live there again.  the weekend was a huge “stop living in your past” lesson.  i relished in the company of my dear sister, was elated to lie in the sand and let the sun brown me like a little cinnamon bun, but then i let myself get carried away.  acted very foolish and consumed entirely too much alcohol… became subsequently embarrassed and humbled, yet profoundly hurt and rejected… albeit awakened, in a sense.

here’s to my heart:

“best for last” by adele

Wait, do you see my heart on my sleeve?
It’s been there for days on end and
It’s been waiting for you to open up
Just you baby, come on now
I’m trying to tell you just how
I’d like to hear the words roll out of your mouth finally
Say that it’s always been me

That’s made you feel a way you’ve never felt before
And I’m all you need and that you never want more
Then you’d say all of the right things without a clue
But you’d save the best for last
Like I’m the one for you

You should know that you’re just a temporary fix
This is not rooted with you it don’t mean that much to me
You’re just a filler in the space that happened to be free
How dare you think you’d get away with trying to play me

Why is it everytime I think I’ve tried my hardest
It turns out it ain’t enough cause you’re still not mentioning love
What am I supposed to do to make you want me properly?
I’m taking these chances and getting away
And though I’m trying my hardest you go back to her
And I think that I know things may never change
I’m still hoping one day I might hear you say

I make you feel a way you’ve never felt before
And I’m all you need and you never want more
Then you’d say all of the right things without a clue
But you’d save the best for last
Like I’m the one for you

You should know that you’re just a temporary fix
This is not rooted with you it don’t mean that much to me
You’re just a filler in the space that happened to be free
How dare you think you’d get away with trying to play me

But, despite the truth I know
I find it hard to let go and give up on you
Seems I love the things you do
Like the meaner you treat me the more eager I am
To persist with this heartbreak and running around
And I think that I know things may never change
I’m still hoping one day I might hear you say

I make you feel a way you’ve never felt before
And I’m all you need and that you never want more
And we’ll say all of the right things without a clue
And you’ll be the one for me and me the one for you

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