December 2008


It’s coming on Christmas
They’re cutting down trees
They’re putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on…
But it dont snow here
It stays pretty green
I’m going to make a lot of money
Then I’m going to quit this crazy scene
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I made my baby cry

He tried hard to help me
You know, he put me at ease
And he loved me so naughty
Made me weak in the knees
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I’m so hard to handle
I’m selfish and I’m sad
Now Ive gone and lost the best baby
That I never ever had
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I made my baby say goodbye

It’s coming on Christmas
They’re cutting down trees
They’re putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on…

River – by Joni Mitchell

welcome to my pity party.

i am sick with some fucked up non-strep version of strep throat.  it’s just a virus but holy crap this shit is so annoying.  my throat is dry and scratchy, i can’t swallow and my voice sounds like Carol Channing on her deathbed (is she dead yet?  No?  well, i can imagine this is what she would sound like).  I am in the worst freakin’ mood.  I can’t sleep at all, have no appetite and am seriously a horrible person to be around.  Having to spend the past 4 hours in the house with a whiny 3-year old and a dog that wont stop barking has seriously made me in awe of my self-control… how i managed to keep from pulling out all of the hair on my head and then moving to my eyebrows is nothing short of a miracle.  to have a really viscious sore throat and no way around not having to talk (i’ve repeated myself 90 times that yes, my child, you do in fact have plenty of ketchup on your plate) is agonizing and exhausting.   i just want to pack a suitcase and drive myself to the airport and buy a one way ticket to Antigua.  Or Turks & Caicos.  St. Lucia, maybe.

i’m not dealing with this latest change in my life with any sense of joy or grace at all.  more on that change at a later date…. for now it’s all i can do to keep myself showered and employed.

FTW.