yesterday was my birthday and it was a little sucky.  i miss my Nana… and i think i need new crazy meds because i feel like a bump on a log.  i haven’t been too productive around the house and i feel like i’m just wasting the days away at home and not teaching my boys much of anything.  the tv has been on a lot.  i hope things start to turn around.  i am blaming the latest emotional tragedies but i know neither case would want me to be mopey and sorry for myself, so… i need a kick in the ass – motivation for motivation’s sake.  energy.  drive.  “get up and go”.  any ideas how?

also, i have what feels like a little pimple on the inside of my left nostril.  ouchie.