I have made decisions. I have grown and learned lessons. I have matured. I am intelligent and motivated. I am Mommy and sister and friend. I care. I give. I love.

I am frightened. I am unsure and unsteady. I am hurt and am the cause of others’ hurt. I am broken. I am damaged. I need help. I need love. I am optimistic and terrified.

I am alive and I am going!

In case I’ve never mentioned my ethnic background here, my mom is white but my father was native american and puerto rican (he died in the 80’s.ย  Don’t feel bad, I don’t…). Well, my mom unearthed a pic ofย  the two of them from the 70’s!ย  I thought I would share… she says I have his eyes.

My mother and the sperm donor

My mother and the sperm donor

… and here is a pic of my Mom, sister and I from a couple years ago. It was the only one I could find of the 3 of us, but you can see the family resemblence.

Mom, me and sistagirl

Mom, me and sistagirl

My little Ewok

My little Ewok